Friends Are Foes 2By: Natalie Sade
It started when I was 16. At that point they had been together for two years and engaged for 1 year. I left the door to my room opened. I had just gotten out of the shower, and I thought I was home alone. I felt someone staring at me. When I turned, no one was there. I quickly got dressed, and then searched the house. I found him sitting at the table in the kitchen.
I was terrified, but I didn’t say anything to him. He looked up at me with a knowing expression. After that I would find him staring at me. When I was in the backyard practicing my jumps and stretches for cheerleading, I would feel his eyes roaming up my body. Watching every move I made.
Finally I had enough. I told her how I felt. Of course he had never touched me, and I had no proof, but as my mother why did she need any? Unfortunately I told her two weeks before their wedding. She had been waiting on a ring since before I was born, I should have known I couldn’t come between that.
She accused me of being jealous. She assured me I was still her baby-girl and her first priority. Then she patted me on my head, and asked if I wanted to go get my nails done.
The next two years were filled with her doing all that she could to make sure I was never alone with her husband. I wasn’t sure if she was protecting me or him. On my 18th birthday we went apartment hunting. I hadn’t even graduated high school, but I moved out that weekend.
I gathered my clothes and went to put them in the car. When I walked back to the house, she was standing on the porch blocking the door.
“Can I get my purse and my phone?” I fumed with my face scrunched up.
“I figured you were in a rush,” she lied.
“And what gave you that impression?” I asked. I walked around her, slightly bumping her as I walked back into the house. I gathered my belongings and headed for the door. She handed me a $2000 check, and I was on my way.
I cried the whole way to my apartment. I hated her. Was she that desperate for a man that she would forfeit a relationship with her daughter, her only child?
“I thought you didn’t have that much stuff,” I joked. I had just helped Sasha unload her car. I asked her to move in with me for a while. Before Andrea’s death she had been staying here, but I wanted it to be more permanent. Being in Corsicana was hard for her, everything reminded her of Andrea or the rape.
“I don’t. Hell, not compared to you,” she said, flopping down on the couch next to me.
“Whatever,” I said and playfully rolled my eyes. “I got some bad news,” I told her.
“Tika, what?” she asked, sitting up on the couch.
“I have to go to work, just for a little while.” I told her. She didn’t know my true occupation. She thought I still worked at the spa. That was a lie I had been telling her and Raekwon. “I forgot I have a client coming in,” I lied.
“It’s cool. You have to make your money. I’ve been doing some applications online,” she told me.
“Don’t,” I told her. “I’m good with all the bills. Sasha, for real, I just want you to chill and get your mind right. You have been through a lot and now with the trial about to start…I just don’t want you to worry about nothing.” I told her. My friend had been through too much. I wanted this to be like a vacation for her.
“Yea, but I feel like sitting around will just make me lose my mind.”
“Look, I won’t be gone long, so just chill, okay? We’ll talk more when I get back.” I told her. I went to take a bath and prepare for work.
“Sasha,” I said knocking on the door to her room. “Here,” I said and handed her the .22 I always kept in my nightstand. “I know you won’t need it, but I want you to feel safe. And this is a Taser,” I said and pulled it out. “Again, you gon’ be fine, but I just want you to feel safe.” I told her.
“Thank you, Tika.” She said and hugged me. “For everything,” she added.
“Sasha, please don’t make me cry,” I said rubbing her back.
“My bad,” she said and released me.
I was in the car listening to Rocko when the song was interrupted with an incoming call.
“What’s up,” I said.
“Why you got me on speaker?” Raekwon asked.
“I’m using Bluetooth, so I can listen to music. You’re interrupting my Rocko. How can I help you, sir?” I joked.
“I’m in yo’ neck of the woods.”
“How long you gon’ be up here? I gotta work for about two hours, then I’m all yours,” I told him. Raekwon and I started back talking a few weeks ago. The situation with Andrea really fucked me up. Sasha talked to her 15 minutes before she was killed. She was at the grocery store, everything was fine. And then all of a sudden, it wasn’t. This whole ordeal really made me look at my life and the people I loved.
Raekwon was one of those people, and I just wanted to be near him. I called him, and we were both honest about our feelings. It was nothing official, but it came at a good time. He and Trina were broken up, so I wasn’t stepping on anyone’s toes. I was ready to share my life with someone. I wanted that to be Raekwon.